CHOCOLATE CHOCOLATE CHOCOLATE CHOCOLATE CHOCOLATE
Hello everyone: My name is Betty and I am a choco-holic!
Everyone: HELLO BETTY
Betty: Its been six long days since I have partaken in the sinful, uninhibited, mind altering ecstasy that is chocolate!
Everyone: (round of applause) good for you Betty, good for you!!!
Betty: as much as I enjoy and long for your love and admiration, I have failed you all…
Everyone: heavy sigh with muttered speech around the circle
Betty: (Shoulders slumped)
I awoke this morning from a restless night of tossing and turning, cold sweats ravaging my system. I tried contacting my sponsor but she was unavailable( ok she was asleep right next to me)! It was terrible, TERRIBLE I TELL YOU!!!! I can hear it (chocolate) calling my name in the middle of the night! The house is quiet, and yet there it is, taunting me, calling my name! BETTTYY, BEETTYYYY, COME EAT ME!
The chocolate rustling from within a satchel, squirming, rubbing together so the cellophane makes a very distinct sound. MMMMMM Chocolate! I just can’t stand it! I CANT STAND FREAKING STAND IT!!!!!
This is the way I picture a support group devoted to the insane addiction that is chocolate. Together as one we discuss the evil side effects associated with loving chocolate just a little too much! guidance and help provided to get you through a day without finding yourself holed up in a downstairs closet, gorging on a fist full of dark, creamy sin, hoping no one from your family finds you in this degrading example of uncontrollable excess!
It’s truly a struggle for us chocoholics! Its our drug of choice! Having a bad day? Nothing a Dove bar can’t fix! Gotten in an argument with your significant other? Well that Reese’s peanut butter cup is just the ticket! Kids giving you a migraine? Stand back Mounds bar you are all mine and if you don’t like it, I’ll eat your little buddy Almond joy too! It’s that simple! One lick, one sniff, just a little taste, you’re hooked and there is no coming back!!!!!
Making matters worse our society has screwed chocoholics to the wall by enveloping certain holidays with candy! Any holiday where candy is present is a holiday where chocolate rules the day! So when Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas and the ever so dreaded EASTER come around we sit, salivating at the mere prospect of having one day, just one where we can stuff our faces in public without scrutiny from the fitness police!
Hell at Christmas time what is the gift of choice for most business partners, acquaintances, distant family members and friends? SEE’S CANDIES!!!! Yep that’s right they opened a store dedicated to nothing but CHOCOLATE!!! Its like finally getting my medical marijuana card then being told I can only shop for product once a year. One month and one month only the dispensary opens up allowing me to fulfil all mymarijuana needs!
So whats a guy like me to do? A man who can smell chocolate pulling into a parking lot at 300 feet! A man who over the last 2 years has lost close to 40 pounds by fighting, working out and struggling to eat healthy! A man who on Halloween night watched his children divvying up their candy treasure like a hawk eyes its future dinner from above, waiting for the right moment to strike! As the kids placed their treasure back into Halloween sacks for safe keeping, my mouth salivating at the thought of locating these sacks then prying them from there secure spots for future pillaging. I know its wrong. I really do!!
Yet I can hear the chocolate calling, like a zombie only living off the urge to bite, I follow my snapping jaw towards fresh meat, it’s there and chomping into it will bring a frenzied relief to my suffering. I struggle with this feeling on a daily basis.
A valiant effort was put forth last night, but before long as with all addicts I succumbed to the urge, finally giving in to my inner demons around midnight! Looking back on it now, it was sad really; There I sat on the floor in the kitchen, bags in hand sobbing uncontrollably as piece after piece made its way down my gullet. Melted chocolate on my lips, chin and hands. I cried out of disgust for the 3200 calories I had just ingested, I cried for letting myself down, I cried for the hypocrisy of teaching my children not to steal from each other and yet here I sat red-handed (or chocolate-brown handed as it were) stealing piece after piece from someones secret stash! Oh yes a pathetic shell of a man covered in milky way, caramel, peanut butter and dark chocolate. But what made it the biggest failure of all?
It felt good! Sugar, chocolate, sweetness coursing through my veins, bringing relief to the cold sweaty pains of laying in bed knowing it was downstairs!
I was found in the morning surrounded by candy wrappers, in the same location on the kitchen floor. I awoke from my chocolate coma, disoriented, blurry eyed surrounded by little people staring down at the lump of a father who laid before them. I could have asked for forgiveness but they have heard it all before. No tears, no anger, no hurtful words were spoken. Just the woeful tired look glaring back from eyes of disappointment. I sat up and tried to speak, but three heads looked to the ground as the oldest pointed upstairs, suggesting that I leave.
As I headed upstairs, feeling as low as a snakes belly I heard the littlest one mumble to my oldest; I found him first and kissed him to wake him up. He was sweaty and it tasted like a milky way. That is weird right? The oldest quietly answered back it was weird and together they decided it was time to hide what remained so I may never ever find it..
As I turned the corner at the top of the landing, my daughter was overheard mumbling; maybe we should just give the chocolate away so we never end up like dad.. They all agreed. See maybe I am teaching them something after all…..